Okay, I have a confession to make. I can tend to be a slightly paranoid over pertective mother. BIG surprise, I know. But I just love these two little blessings so much that even the thought of something terrible happening when I am away from them literally makes me sick to the stomach. As I am sure it does other mothers as well. But today I am going to Utah with my parents and am only taking Anastyn. Thats right, Porter is staying behind. A two year old AND newborn on a 12 hour car ride without Kameron's help...just didnt sound like something I wanted to do! Since Kameron is working ALL weekend, Porter will be heading to Tucson to stay with my brother and sister-in-law for 3 days. Dont get me wrong, I trust them both completely with my child, they have raised 4 children beautifully and I know they will take care of him as their own. These are the people I would want to raise my children if something were to happen to Kameron and I...but the anxiety still consumes me way too much. I know that everything will be fine, and he will have so much fun with his cousins, and with Kameron for a day before I get home. But I have NEVER been this far from him EVER! I even stayed only one night at the hospital when I had Anastyn because I didnt want to be away from him another day! Knowing that Kameron will be an hour away at the most does give me comfort, and I know that this is going to be something I need to get over eventually. I love you Porter Grant Lee and I miss you already (and I havent even left yet!). Be such a good boy for Aunt Nicole...or you'll have to answer to Uncle Jared!! Be a good listener, a big eater, share, sleep through the night, and do NOT break anything. (that incluses toys, glass, and bones!) I'll be home soon, and if you are a good boy, Mommy will bring you a surprise!! =)Okay, I feel better for now...we'll see how I do when I ACTUALLY have to say goodbye to the little booger! Wheeew...deep breath...
2 comments:
Gina! Cute, cute blog girl. Porter is such a CUTE little stinker. He will be just fine, as will you (a nice little break) but I totally understand your anxiety. We are going to add your blog to ours if that is okay with you. We are going to go private on the 15th of Aug with our blog (you can read why on our blog - www.crazyfunlaytons.blogspot.com ) but if you would like to read ours, you'll just need to e-mail me at emandjen@gmail.com and send me your blog e-mail! You are such a good mom - and I am amazed at how well you do at church with Porter and Anastyn, sometimes all alone! You are an inspiration! : )
Jen Layton
Hey when are you coming up to Utah? And you might have already told me, but for what?
You are so cute! I feel the same way when I leave Jordan. I still haven't had anyone babysit her yet besides Corey and just dropping off the monitor because she is just sleeping. But I can't get myself to do it yet. People tell me that will change once she gets older. Haha!
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